Stayed up too long

When you want and miss someone, sometimes its sounds like a good idea to go ahead and stay up because a few hours for them they're out of work but its midnight for you already. So its not too bad? You miss them too much to take the change of not getting up early enough to talk to them when they get out...BUT I have to say its better to accidentally to sleep in now then to stay up and feel like your brain is going to crash. You get grumpy (at least me) and then you can't even stay up that long to even talk to them before you're dying for the bed. I ended up getting off in an hour of talking, I even also took some words wrong because I couldn't read and process things correctly....making me feel like she was upset or was irritated with me. Haha, soo when I finally got up today and talked to her some more I was happy I got my rest. My attention span is even longer and also I could hold a conversation way better. Oh yeah and by the way my lady is a day ahead and well to calculate her time it takes to adding and then changing the am to pm....so when she gets up its the middle of the day for me and my night time is the middle of the day for her. Then when i get up she has to get ready for bed! So right when its the middle of the day she gets up, rushes to work, and spends a few minutes talking to me until she gets into areas like buses full of people. Then when she enters her building she spends the rest of my day and night working, so when I get up early she's finally going or in bed starting to get ready to sleep. So I have to make sure since I don't have work right now I need to go ahead and sleep at the right time and if I don't I panic wondering "WHY DID I DRINK COFFEE!!!" For I could miss a day of her and worse of all if I can't go back right away to my sleep schedule then it ends up a little cycle of me not getting up the right time. So I get very upset sometimes and sometimes my solution is not very smart.
Okay enough of that conversation. I'm already getting sleepy. So I'm off to my house to sleep so I can get up early to see my wonderful lady.
Night night Or...Good day Readers!

Finally Internet~!

Okay so I have been gone for awhile huh? Well, just when I decided I wanted to make a website, two days later into it my Internet goes down. Yeah it was no fun! Think about it, sitting on the couch all day with no phone, no access to the Internet, and worst of all NO way to reach my love. I'm surprised I went with almost weeks with out it. Finally....On my journey to have a good Fourth of July I get to spend the night at a friends house who is nice to lend me her other laptop.
Of course while time went by my two best friends let me give my girl friend some sort of message through them that I was still alive. However I became a little more chubby from being sad and hardly eating anything since my roommates ate too much food, and usually forgot that they left me starving. Ha ha! However I conquer most of the days with a few notes I started to write. Passing the time in agony with love letters...or just letters about what I was doing, how my day was, and the things that I kept thinking about while I couldn't talk to my partner. Ended up in a tiny little envelop now ready to be shipped off to my Lover in a Different Country! I'm excited even thought it cost me probably three dollars. He he, but I hope she loves it. After all I put a lot of things from my heart. I even wrote a Poem and a list of things I missed/loved about her and what I thought about most while she was away. It made me also reflect on how much I learned about her from the time I met her. She use to get upset knowing that I forgot her birthday the first time she told me....I'm very forgetful and I decided to even once make a folder on my computer putting all her information like what her brothers names were to her favorite color! Yep, I wanted to memorise it all. I never had to before, then again I hardly even care...sadly to say. I wasn't much on the whole idea of knowing someone and getting close to them until I met someone who mattered.
Anyways I'm getting sleepy and I can't stop thinking of my love and how she's online right now but at work. Taking forever to text me, while I'm getting more tired. I need to stay up..SO I'm going to list ideas for good dating ideas and games for long distance relationships! So Please go ahead and read that and have a nice Happy Fourth Of July Day After! If...anyone is reading this thingy!

Connecting

It's becoming obviously more and more of a need to see each other online. One of our favorite ways is go onto skype but mostly Yahoo messenger. It's interesting how much I'm more content with not having to see each other like she does, I mean she reacts and treats me much more nicely, as if her soul is at ease. I don't mind as much I guess because I like the idea of bonding through just words, becoming mentally close and not into just the physical aspect....instead she'll love me on how I am and how I think. However I think it's good to actually get to see each other on a cam for the distance feels less and less that way. It's way more closer feeling the having to talk onto the phone or text, kinda one step closer then the rest of communication to have that feeling of almost touching each other.
So as a nice person : 3 for all you long distance lovers Please go onto: Skype.com and download it for an easy way to webcam!
Also Yahoo.com...yahoo has an awesome thing inside your mail area where it keeps records of also your conversations. I love it! x ) its an easy way to look back at conversations! Ahhh how i love yahoo, even though the quality of the cam can be less as great as Skypes but at the same times easier to connect to then skype...I'm not sure why.
A site that you can also go ahead and start caming on with out downloading is Tinychat.com Check it out if you cannot download stuff such as yahoo or skype. All you do is make a user profile, make a room, private it, and then lastly get your sweetheart on it! In fact that was the places I first saw my gf on cam! <3 and I instantly fell in love. The images are nice, and not blurry and connects way easier then the two you have to download. However the site itself can be faulty or so forth and I feel like on yahoo or skype it feels more private to me.
Now I'm sure there might be more places you can go and see your sweetheart online, but right now that's mainly what I use and know are very decent and great to get connected with my partner. Ahh how I love to give information to people. x3 in fact I should make a "Do you need help with your Lover?!" site and then take questions ;3 and help people and give answers or some decent advice. For I feel like I've been through it all...have I? Probably not, but I can relate, since i have a very expanded imagination and I know how to relate with how you might feel...after all I am very emotional and human. Haha even ask my girl friend...nah don't ask her.
Anyways...enough with my babel! See you next time readers!

Loving someone is always hard...

As hard as it gets, I think nothing is harder then keeping a long distance relationship going. There is so much you can't do, and probably no one has much of an idea what to do when it comes to having distance in your way. Also my main problem is the whole being in another Country! I thought someone 2 hours away was horrible! But another Country?! Whenever I look at flights to want to know how much to save for the future the huge zeros always kills me. Now if I ever get the money to go visit the person I'm in love I'm going to be amazed, specially since I only lived in a middle lower class family. You know the ones that barely pay for a house and then rely on government to help pay for food? Yeah and now that I've seen the numbers I'm puzzled and upset, thinking how am I ever going to get this money? I have no income, since getting a job is hard in this city, whatever money i get for college might be used up on food and rent money to keep at my roommates house, since you know living in a place isn't for free. Sooo, i have no idea what to do. Yet, I'm trying my best to get onto my feet and work to be with the person I am in love with the most. So I hope I get some good writing done and all my feelings out onto this blog, and I hope my readers love it!